Lebanon's Hezbollah hit by backlash after Beirut blast
She took cover from the flying debris, thoughts rushing through her head of past political assassinations in Lebanon. Her immediate reaction was that Hezbollah, the militant group that dominates power here, was targeting the dissidents' meeting.
The blast was in fact at the port of Beirut, caused by a stockpile of ammonium nitrate stored there for years. So far, it appears to be a result of longtime government mismanagement. No direct connection to Hezbollah has emerged in the explosion that wreaked destruction across the city and killed at least 180 people.
Theories abound about what triggered the explosion, including even a possible Israeli strike against Hezbollah.
Jaafar's initial reaction reflected the fear Hezbollah has instilled among many Lebanese and the power it has succeeded in projecting over the past decade.
For many, the Iran-backed Hezbollah now stands at the top of Lebanon's sectarian-based system of power - and so is complicit in the corruption many blame for the port disaster and for driving the country into near bankruptcy.
"Who controls most of everything?" asked Jaafar, a secular Shia. Hezbollah and its ally, President Michel Aoun, "are the people in charge. ... They bear the responsibility".
In the wake of the blast, Hezbollah has come under unprecedented public criticism and its role in Lebanese politics under intense scrutiny.
Cardboard effigies of Hezbollah's leader, Hassan Nasrallah, and other politicians were hanged on nooses at a rally after the blast. Some accused Hezbollah of storing weapons at the port, a claim it denies. Hezbollah's political rivals seized the opportunity to fan hostilities against it and its allies.
Social media posts mocked Nasrallah's speeches. One noted how the US killing of Iranian commander Qassim Soleimani in Iraq in January prompted Nasrallah to weep and threaten revenge - while in his first speech following the blast, he was smiling and calm.
"There is a paradox there with Hezbollah. They have never been more powerful politically and militarily. But they have never faced such an array of challenges as well," said Nicholas Blanford, a Beirut-based Hezbollah expert.
The season of discontent against Hezbollah comes as Lebanese suffer under an economic crash that has driven nearly half of the population into poverty.
Rather than push for reform, critics say, Hezbollah has stood by its political allies who resist change. It also denied support to nationwide protests that erupted in October demanding the end of the dysfunctional political structure. US sanctions against Iran and Hezbollah made things harder.
For years, Hezbollah maintained a clean reputation and distance from Lebanon's political elite.
It developed its power and resources as a resistance movement against Israel and became virtually a state within a state, heading a powerful military force and a welfare network for its Shiite supporters.
Hezbollah remains Lebanon's only armed force outside the military. It controls the borders and plays a crucial role in Iranian-backed wars in the region, like Syria's.
In 2005, an explosion killed former Prime Minister Rafik Hariri and changed Lebanon's political course. The bombing, blamed on Hezbollah, sent nearly a million people into the streets, forcing Hezbollah's ally Syria to end its occupation of Lebanon.
After that, Hezbollah began seeping into the system - from having a handful of Parliament members to becoming Lebanon's most powerful political faction.
Hezbollah and its allies formed the last Cabinet. Its failures came to be seen as Hezbollah's, Blanford said.
And they were many: The government failed to enact reforms, stem the financial meltdown or reach a rescue package with the International Monetary Fund. It finally resigned after the explosion.
Hezbollah plays a significant role in forming the new government.
To deflect criticism, Nasrallah addressed supporters several times, denying Hezbollah had anything to do with the port explosion.
He made thinly veiled warnings to critics. In an Aug. 14 speech, Nasrallah warned repeatedly against pushing Lebanon toward civil war. He urged supporters to "hold onto their anger" over criticism, hinting it would be unleashed against opponents.
In Hezbollah's stronghold in the Beirut suburb, supporters saw the explosion as a conspiracy to weaken Lebanon and the group.
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"We had two places to bring money and assistance from: the port and the airport. Something had to happen somewhere so that the siege [on Lebanon] is tightened and so that these people rise against their rulers," said Issam Kaeen, a 42-year-old coffee shop owner.
Mohammed Abi Shakra, who owns a women's wear shop, said an Israeli attack on the port can't be ruled out. "This is a conspiracy against the Lebanese people to make them poor, to incite civil war," he said.
Meanwhile, social tensions are on the rise. Opponents of Hezbollah clashed twice with the group's supporters, including a gunfight on Thursday that killed two bystanders and wounded several. Gunmen reportedly opened fire over religious banners raised by Hezbollah supporters.
"There is no god but God, and Nasrallah is the enemy of God," mourners chanted at a funeral of one of the killed.
Following the explosion, Hezbollah made some internal changes, part of a shift inward after the nationwide protests and its receding role in Syria´s war, an official with the group said. The group´s security chief was given a bigger portfolio and the head of an agency that coordinates with allies was replaced. Media operations are also changing, the official said, speaking on condition of anonymity to confirm media reports.
After the blast, Jaafar and other victims demanded an international investigation. "We lost our homes, our kids, our fathers and our city. We lost everything," she said in an angry speech at a gathering near the port.